December 04, 2012

How the thought process started

What triggered it all?

The first of May 2012 I went to the hospital after having had pain in a foot for weeks. It was not getting better, but rather worse - more and more swollen, and it got more and more difficult to walk on it. The doctor took one look at it, it was X-rayed, and it was confirmed that it was broken.
Coffee, a part of the thought process
I was given crutches and told to go home and rest. To me it was a disaster, or so I thought - I have never been known for sitting still, I love to move and I live a very active life. Now, the broken foot didn't quite immobilise me, I was simply too restless (and far to worried about deep vein thrombosis) to just sit still, but it definitely forced me to be more still than normal. And that's when the route towards what could be considered my new life started...

During the weeks after I was diagnosed, and also the weeks after I got of the crutches but still had to take it easy, I started to think. I was contemplating life as it is, I was thinking about what I have done and about what I want to do next. I was pondering what was and is important to me, and how life has changes, because (thankfully!) it has, I am no longer the same person I was five years ago, or not even  the same I was two years ago - with new experiences comes new development.

And while I have had a really great life up until now, there are definitely things that I am curious about, things I want to see and do. I am also not a person who will just settle down and be satisfied with what I have, I do need to keep on developing and I do need to keep on moving, learning about myself, and learning. It is what I am and it is what I do.

Yes, I know there are a lot of people that tell me that I should be happy for what I've got and that I have nothing to complain about, and they are right, it is true - I am happy for what I've got and I don't complain, nor should I, life so far has been truly wonderful to me - I may not have taken the standard routes, but it has been a very interesting journey so far. However I still want to learn new things, experience and explore more, and I am grateful that I really got a chance to think things over, an opportunity to contemplate my current situation and what could be in my future. It turns out that in the end, breaking my foot was the best thing that could have happened to me, because that is how I started to figure out what I am now doing next.

I have a fantastic life. I love what I do. But we only live once - and what if there is something even MORE exciting out there! I believe it's important to always continue to grow, to challenge yourself. 

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