There is no way back
|Gothenburg canal, with the fish market|
I read an interesting article about this recently, see the link below:
But there are the fears. And yes, life has gone on without you. And the longer you stay in your new home, the more profound those changes will become.
|Beautiful Gothenburg in the spring|
|Gothenburg, a green city with lots of water|
When I am in Gothenburg, or in Sweden in general, I am expected to fit in, and I simply don't. Not that I fit in in Germany either, but the difference is that I am not German, so I am not expected to fit in, just like I am not Taiwanese, so I am not expected to fit in there either. In Sweden I am Swedish and expected to fit in, to know all the social rules and to follow the path that everybody else does. It just doesn't suit me. I am not sad about it, I am not upset about it, I am just stating the obvious. When I am elsewhere in the world I don't fit in, I am not expected to fit in, I don't have to fit in, and I don't feel the pressure. I like to not fit in, and that I can do better elsewhere.
And unlike the author of the article above I never ever lay awake and think about things I miss at home, nor do I wait to live in full colour back where I belong - because where I belong is here, out in the world. It may be that I will feel it when I am in Taiwan, that I will long back to Germany, or to Europe; But Sweden, Sweden is not where I belong. I stopped belonging in Sweden years ago.